Wednesday, October 6, 2010
I had a lumpectomy and sentinel node biopsy. Surgery went very well, but I must tell you that I was not prepared for the sentinel node biopsy. I did not realized that they had to give you 4 injections around your nipple, ouch, ouch, ouch, ouch! They do not give you any anesthetic for this. Hope I never never have to do that again. Honestly it was painful, but the pain was short lived, thank goodness.
GREAT NEWS......lymph node biopsy came back negative, WOOT! Thanking and Praising God for these results. From here I will need 33 radiation treatments and chemo consult to see if I should be taking a chemo pill (Tamoxifen or Arimidex) for five years......yes five years. But that is better than doing IV chemo treatment, which causes hair loss and sickness.
My road is still long, but I can and will do this with my head held high. I am very fortunate that the cancer was found very early. Praise God!
Until we meet again,
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I honestly am not worried about the outcome. I think that everything is going to be ok. God is my rock and my strength. Speaking of rocks, at our church one Sunday (probably a year ago) our pastor passed out rocks to remind us that God is our ROCK. I still have that rock and I look at it most every day. Sometimes I pick it up and just hold it in my hand. It's a little reminder to me that God is there for me always. Is that not wonderful??
I have had a cold since Friday and today I finally am feeling much better, thank goodness. For awhile I was afraid I might not be able to have my surgery. But all is looking up.
Until next time; Live, Laugh, Love
Saturday, September 25, 2010
I had my Radiation Oncology appointment. The hubby and youngest son went with me. It was enlightening and encouraging. The doctor was super and the staff was great. They made me feel positive and were very caring.
So I have decided to have lumpectomy and sentinel node biopsy. I will need 33 radiation treatments. I was so against radiation due to the side effects, but the doc helped me to better understand the process. Hopefully I have made the best decision for me.
Surgery will be next Friday. I am ready to move on and get this behind me. I feel comfortable with all of it. It's kinda of funny, people will tell me that I am handling this very well. My response is that God is in control of the situation and has given me the peace to deal with this. They look so amazed. Don't get me wrong, I do have my moments, but they are very few.
My diabetes seems to be in good control. That has been a challenge. It's life changing and I'm adjusting pretty well.
Until next time............Live, Laugh, Love
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I have a wedding to go to. My oldest son is getting married Saturday at the beach. We get to leave Thursday and enjoy some sun before the big day. Everyone is so excited. I have never been to a beach wedding. I am hoping that the weather will stay good. (No rain please). In the meantime................
my youngest son went to Cancun this past Saturday and was to fly back today. Well last night they canceled his flight and said that it would be Friday before he could get a flight. OHHHH no that will not work at all cause he is the best man and he must be at the beach Friday for rehearsal. What now??? Panic, panic, panic! My son was irate and apparently let them know it. In the meantime.............
he finally got a flight out today with a different air line and should be in tonight around midnight.
Ahhhhh.......thats enough, right? Right!
Off to pack, dog to vet, then church and home to rest before tomorrow!
Lots of excitement. Hope your w/end is good and mine too, hehehe!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
The breast cancer is requiring test after test before any surgery will be done. I must decide between lumpectomy and mastectomy. I am steering away from having lumpectomy due to the need to have radiation. Radiation scares me a lot. My aunt died from leukemia last year which she developed from radiation. She too started out with breast cancer. If I have a mastectomy I will not need radiation. Decisions, decisions, decision.
I had a CT chest and abdomen last Friday and it came back good. Praise God! Today I will be having a Bonescan and am praying for good news.
This is quite an adventure. I am so thankful to have God by my side and a huge support system from family and friends.
Keep me in your prayers, please!
Monday, September 6, 2010
I have prayed for peace and comfort during this time and God has indeed given me that. I am truly at peace. I have not been over anguish about this. It is what it is. I am thankful to have such an awesome God.
My guys (husband and 2 sons) are a little anguish. They have been so supportive about the Diabetes and the biopsy. My trip Friday to the hospital went very well. I could not have ask for better care.
Live, Laugh, love
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Live, Laugh, Love
Monday, August 30, 2010
Tuesday I had a follow up appointment with my doctor. SURPRISE! I found out that I was a diabetic, have high cholesterol, and have Vit D deficiency. I felt shocked and surprised! This added 4 new medications to my list.
The next Wednesday I saw an Endocrinologists. SURPRISE! Not only am I a diabetic but I have Type 1 diabetes (Juvenile diabetes). Remember I just turned 50, so how is it possible that I have Type1 diabetes? Well that we are still trying to figure out. Needless to say I am now on Insulin (2 different kinds), checking my blood sugar 4 times a day, changing my eating habits and now I have a HUGE reason to exercise. My blood sugar numbers have been all over the chart. Follow up this week with the Endo to hopefully get some answers and probably more changes.
Ho hum! This just goes to show you that not all SURPRISES are the same.
Friday, August 27, 2010
3 Breast CA Awareness shirts (long sleeve) $ 72.00. I paid $ 16.71. Savings of $ 55.29
Sealy 330 ct King Sheets $ 140.00. I paid $ 40.60. Savings of $ 102.41
Comforter, shams, sheets & pillowcase set $ 160.00. I paid $ 44.27. Savings of $ 119.01
2 white dress shirts for my son the groom $ 86.00. I paid $ 17.10. Savings of $ 60.17
I got $ 458.00 worth of merchandise for a mere $ 118.68. WOOT!!!!
I was so excited, I never do this well.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Now if only I could muster up the desire, ugh!!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Anywho, as I was checking out and doing the necessary paperwork, the clerk told me that Thenjiwes card had been there for some time now, mostly because people usually picked younger children. He told me that the day before he and a co worker had prayed that some one would soon pick Thenjiwe. So he was excited that God answered his prayer and I am so glad that God used me to answer this prayer and to sponsor this child.
Our God does work in mysterious ways. Praise God!
Thursday, July 15, 2010
This morning I sit outside for a short time and listened to the birds. It was awesome music to my ears. I have actually being doing this for over a month now. I love it......that special time gives me the opportunity to reflect on God's blessings. You know he really is amazing. What a creator - just look around. AWESOME!!
I hope your day is good and filled with many blessings!
Live, Laugh, Love
Thursday, July 8, 2010
And I am back in business with a cell phone. My old one died from Diet Coke poisoning. I never knew how much I would miss that thing if I didn't have it with me. But the worse part is that I lost all of my contact numbers and I had a lot. That will never happen again (hopefully) because I am going to use the Verizon backup plan.
It's been really hot and humid lately and today will be no different. I truely would love to go home change into by bathing suit, go to my mom's and lay by the pool all day. And....read a good book, swim and/or take a nap in the shade. Oh would that not be heavenly???
Ugh, back to work!!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Psssssstttt! I am work and I so want to go home..........another SIGH!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I really don't understand why they find the need to constantly lie. I might could understand a lie every once in awhile, but constantly. It really doesn't make them look better. I especially detest it when they look me in the face and tell me a HUGE LIE and I know their telling a lie. What are they thinking?
I believe I would like them so much better if they could just be their self.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Today however is a new day.........so far so good. My mood is not the greatest. I am a worry wart and a fixer. It is really hard for me to sit back and watch things happen and not jump in to try and fix it. But, for my sanity I must sit back and watch. Am I the only person who has this problem?
Anywho, early this morning (7:30 am) my oldest son called me (way early for him to call, heart racing) just to talk. Awwwww! That is one of those moments that takes your breath away. I felt special. We had a great conversation and it was a good way to start my day. I needed that!
I am at work now, feeling a little blah (mostly because I hate drama and I know the storm is brewing). Hoping for a good day.
Live, Laugh, Love
Friday, May 14, 2010
McD: Welcome to McDonalds. Would you like to try a Mocha Frappe?
Customer: No! I want four coffee's with Sweet & Low and cream.
McD: I am sorry we do not have S&L, would you like Splenda or Equal?
Customer: No I want Sweet & Low and cream.
McD: What I am saying is that we don't have S&L, would you like Splenda or Equal?
Customer: WHAT I AM TRYING TO TELL YOU IS THAT I WANT SWEET & LOW AND CREAM. ARE YOU NOT LISTENING TO ME??? (With hands waving out the window)
McD: I am really sorry, but we do not have Sweet & Low. You will have to choose Splenda or Equal.
Customer: Just give me Equal and cream.
Customer drives around and pays.
Next window to pick up her order, she tells them that she wants Sweet & Low and cream. Now the manager is at the window explaining that they do not have S&L.
OH MY!!!! It was hilarious to watch and listen.
Thanks for the entertainment!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
I am lifting each of these people and their families up to the Lord in prayer. I am praying for healing, comfort, peace. I know each of them are struggling with pain, weakness and many other health issues, as cancer is a mean disease.
Perhaps that is why I am so blah lately. I feel helpless in these situations. I am and will continue to pray for them. I will never understand "WHY" but will remember that God is in control.
Blessings to all..................
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
Oh, how could I forget, Saturday is my dad's birthday.
Hope you have an awesome weekend, I plan to!
Monday, April 19, 2010
I am adjusting to changes in my life, slowly buy surely. My new motto is..............If I can't change it, whats the point in worrying about it? It seems to be working well for me. Also, I have been spending more time in prayer and relinquishing more to God. We do indeed have an awesome God!
This past Sunday we started studying Genesis in Sunday School. Interesting thoughts from SS class mates. We actually didn't get very far in the first Chapter of Genesis. Who knew there would be so much discussion. I am so excited about this study. One of the question that was ask is- if God made man, where did God come from?? Ok, personally I don't ponder on this to much. I just accept that God is and has always been. What about you? Any thoughts?
I am off to bed to read and then get a good nights sleep.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
One particular day as you were up to your shenanigans, God stepped in and answered my prayer. I had prayed that God would help me to keep my mouth shut and move on, over looking your shenanigans. Praise God he did! Later in the day, God again stepped in while my mind was thinking of you and your desperation of attention and told me that I should PRAY FOR YOU! What! Seriously? Wow, what was I to do? Of course I will listen to God.
So my friend full of shenanigans and desperation, I am praying for you as God has ask me to do. I am excited to see how God is going to work in your life. Oh have no doubt he is going to be working on you. My hope is that you will let him in and push the devil away.
Friday, April 2, 2010
On to the eye doctor office. I have new glasses and I cannot see out of them unless I raise my chin and look through the bifocal part. So I took them back and explained to the technician what was going on. She tried many adjustments, which obviously did not work and then calls on a gentleman to help me. Again we go through adjustments. At this point I am not sure what part of I can not see through the top part of my glasses they are not getting. The gentlemen holds up a card straight it front of me and says can you see that. Again, NO its blurring. He tells me to raise my chin, now can you see it. Yes I can! (because i am looking through the bifocal part). And he says.... "Well ok then there you go." hummmm, I am thinking and really trying to be nice and finally I say "I cannot walk around all day with my chin up in the air" and dufus says "Oh!" What an idiot! Finally I have to make another appointment to get my eyes check again. After reading my chart he discovers that my new lens are weaker than my old ones. Huh??? How does that work?? Needless to say I have to have another eye exam. Oh holy crap!!!
On to the next doc appointment to get my meds for headaches and the lovely ones that keeps me from wanting to hurt somebody. Great short visit. Yay!
It was a full day, but at least I did get to ride with my window down. Yay for sunshine and warm weather.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
He was so excited and I was excited for him. He has wanted to do this forever. There were 4 of us that went with him (on the road trip, not the plane ride). That 4 did not include his father - he refused to watch. So after having a brief instructional class and watching a brief movie, he was on his way. He never seemed nervous at all.
All geared up, away they went. Up, up, and away in a very small puddle jumper (4 passenger). A little over 10,000 feet in the air, attached to a professional skydiver with only 4 hooks, they jumped off of a very small ledge on the plane, turned two flips, free fell for a whole whopping 35 seconds before pulling the cord and then just soared around for a while and had a safe landing.
As I expected he was all smiles and wanted to do it again. However, I am afraid he will have to save a little money before he does that again. That was not a cheap thrill.
So glad he did, so glad he enjoyed it, so glad he had a safe dive. He can mark that one off of his bucket list.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Hopefully it will be worth it!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I miss my BFF.
I hate it when people whisper, send an email or text - stop trying to make me feel like your talking about me.
I hate it when people suck up and play the game, just be yourself!!! or least don't complain to me about it and then change because you feel the need to suck up, ugh!!
What the crap am I going to fix for dinner? An everyday challenge because I don't enjoy cooking.
No I don't want to try your 5 for $5.01, just give me my sandwich.
I wish the rules didn't change everyday.
Can I just go home and go to bed??
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Have you ever wished there was a Delete button for life? You know the times when you have said something that you really wished you hadn't. The time that your mouth speaks before your brain can process what comes out. The minute it comes out you know that you have messed up, ugh!! Delete! all better, starting over, thinking, then speaking.
Have you ever had a situation that you would like to delete from your mind? The situation that you somehow found yourself involved in, but would love to move on and forget it or you wish it never never never would have happen in the first place. Delete! Delete! Mind clear!!
I wont go as far to say that I would like to delete a person from my life. No I would never wish that. Hmmm, yes I have thought that, sorry. Not to say that I would delete them away for ever and ever, just away from me. Delete!
There are many things that I wish I could delete and start over, but as we all know that is impossible. Can you image being able to have a delete button? I am thinking there would be abuse of the delete button, hehehe.
There would be many life lessons I would miss if I had a delete button, so maybe it's not such a good idea. The best answer to those "I wish I had not said that" is prayer. The best answer to rough situations is prayer. The best answer to people who drive me absolutely nuts is prayer.
Is it not awesome to know that you can take everything to God in prayer? He is there 24 /7. I love the little smiles and warm heart I get went I realize that God has answered my prayers or when I see him working in ways that I never could have imaged. Sure God does really big things, but I do so enjoy the small things as well.
Live, Laugh, Love
Monday, March 15, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I need to have a God "walk about." That is the name I give for my much needed conversation with God...........I usually go walking on our driveway (1 mile long) alone and just have a good ole talk with God. Now if my neighbors, which are not real close but can see me, watch me doing this, they must think I am crazy........I am looking at the sky, making motions with my arms and the lips are moving alot. Perhaps I should do this in the dark, which I have before. HaHaHa
It's a different time with God then simply saying my prayers. It's a time when I feel like I am going over the edge, so walking and talking to God really helps. Maybe this evening. Don't call the cops, I will be ok.
Update on my Mom - she is doing great after her surgery. YAY! Praise God!
Hope you are having a great day!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
And then last night we had family dinner. After dinner the boys stayed to play the Wii (Mario Brothers). They had a great time. It was fun listening to them laugh, play arguing of over who did this or who did that. I was in another room, but I could hear them and it brought me such joy and a smile on my face. Another precious moment!
I love those precious moments. It is amazing at how much they will warm your heart!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Today it is beautiful here. The sun is shining and it is going to be around 60 degrees, Yay! I have a busy day ahead, church things, 2 birthday parties and some much needed cleaning and laundry to do. Oh yeah and a little time outside to soak up some Vit D.
I hope you have a wonderful day however you spend it.
Live, Laugh, Love
Thursday, February 18, 2010
As I said we all dreaded this surgery because the last one was very difficult for her. Anywho, as most of you know nothing goes as planned, arrived at 5 am, surgery was to be at 7:15 am. Well......surgery started at 8:15 and was over around 10:10 am. Everything went well. As this point we are waiting on a room for her. They always tell you there are no available rooms, in truth they don't have enough nurses to cover. Mom stayed in regular recovery so we were not able to see her. I didn't like that part because I needed to see her for myself and decide how she was doing, but they don't really care how I think she is doing, rules are rules- and I get that. They were kind enough to call ever so often and let us know how she was.
Finally at 2:30 pm we get the call that she is going to her room. Again comes the dread of how she is going to do. Nobody wants to see their mother suffer. Much to my surprise she was smiling and that was totally awesome to me. She really did well during the surgery / recovery process.
I was so relieved and so was my dad. Lots and lots of prayers were said for mother and God answered those prayers. Praise God!!
Is it not awesome when your prayers are answered and God puts that little appreciative smile on your face and you offer those 2 little words to God - Thank You!
Talked with Mom this morning and she is still doing well and I am still thanking and praising God for answered prayers!!
Live, Laugh, Love
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Do you know people who take advantage of situations, who abuse the the system? Who use you to get what they want? People who don't really care how it affects you, they are only thinking of their self. This frustrates me! I allow it to upset me (devil working).
I over reacted to a situation recently, it was bad and afterwards I was not pleased with myself and I am sure that God was not either. So, this week when frustrating things have been happening to me, I have tried really hard to let it go, to relinquish all to God. I ask God to take it and deal with it, that I AM letting it go. And he does!!! When I truly let go I can then feel the peace in the situation. That is an awesome feeling. Now if I could only do it every time. Instead of being upset, I try to pray for myself and whom ever the situation involves. I try to react how God would want me to (not always easy for me). I truly believe that this will be an ongoing struggle for me, mostly because I am a stubborn person. (yes, really I am)
Out of my distress I called on the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free. Psalm 118:5
Thank goodness he is still working on me!
Live, Laugh, Love
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Enough said about that. You get the point, don't you?
I want to share with you a reading that I found while doing my devotions this week. It really spoke to me. It comes from Daily Guideposts 2009.
Scripture first: .....A time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted.
You sow seeds every day whether you know it or not.
Some plantings grow to be food for the soul:
the songs you sing aloud or hum in silence;
the kind words you speak to those with aching hearts;
the prayers that live within you.
Some plantings can crowd out the lettuce and the lilies:
weeds that plant themselves and settle in, like hurtful words carelessly spoken.
These must be plucked up.
The planting and the plucking up are two parts of one thing--
you are the sower; God is the grower.
The harvest is one whole and holy soul.
Dear God, I confess that I sow and reap both joy and pain as I walk through life. I trust that You can make a thriving garden of my plantings.
I so needed that reading this week and it has meant so much to me. I hope you will benefit from it also.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Friday, one of my very best friends lost her job : ( I was sad for her, hurt for her, how much more could she take? Another blow that she didn't need. You see, she had lost a child to Trisomy 18 in October and returned to work in late December and Friday, as I said, lost her job. WOW! I ached so much for her and wondered what's next?
Friday evening I attended a Women's Conference at this same friend's church. What a great time. The Lord was surely present. My friend spoke at the conference about her loss of "Johanna" to Trisomy 18. She praised God for her blessing, yes her blessing of "Johanna." She spoke of how this had changed her life and of how a ministry called "Johanna's Gift" had been started in remembrance of her little girl. This ministry will reach out to other mothers who are expecting a child and are in need of guidance and baby supplies.
I knew after she spoke that my friend was indeed going to be just fine. God is working in her life in a huge way. God has bigger plans for her. I could not entirely see that earlier Friday, but clearly I do see it now. Praise God!!
The keynote speaker at the Women's Conference was Carol Kent. She was awesome. She was a christian lady who had/has trials and tribulations in her life, she was someone that you could relate to. As she told her story it touched my heart as a mother. I am not sure that I could have made it through what she had faced as a mother, but she has!!! and she praises God for that. You see God has a plan for each of us and though there are times that things get in the way or things happen that we don't understand why, if we will relinquish all to God, he will show us his plan in a marvelous unexpecting way.
I have been through many trials in my life, don't we all have these? One particular trial ripped me apart. I ALLOWED this trial to rip me apart. I was sinking quickly. I was hurting by an action that someone had done to me. I believe that God sent me a special friend to help me through this trial. She listened and encouraged me. She shared her faith. She taught me to forgive. She helped me to relinquish all to God. I could never have made it through this trial without her, my family and most of all God.
When others hurt us we must forgive them as God forgives us of our sins, our mistakes. If we don't forgive them, how can we expect God to forgive us? There are times that I find it hard to forgive. I carry the hurts with me for days, sometimes weeks and sometimes even longer. But
once I relinquish all to God, things get better.
Romans 12: 20-21 "If you enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
Praising God for special friends, family, forgiveness and his unconditional love.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I am looking forward to Friday and Saturday - I am attending a Women's Conference at my friends church. Carole Kent will be the main speaker. However, my BFF, will be speaking first on Friday night - she will share her story / blessing about her daughter "Johanna Raye." Johanna Raye was born with Trisomy 18 and lived 63 glorious minutes. Johanna Raye has touched so many lives and continues to do so. Praise God!
I look forward to this meeting and I am in much need of this time - to share, to laugh, to hug, to praise our God and so much more.
Live, Laugh, Love
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
"There are many ways you can donate - an easy way is to text "Haiti" to 90999 to give $10 to the Red Cross. It will be on your next phone bill. OR you can text "disaster" to 90999 to give $10 to Compassion's disaster relief program."
Yup, it's that simple. I did it in a matter of moments.
Praying for Haiti.......................
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
That question got me to thinking about myself. Here I am an adult with grown children and am I who I want to be when I grow up? My answer is "No." Most people make resolutions at the New Year and yes I have before - with failure.
This year I do not want to fail, I want to become a better me! A better me in different ways. I have goals that I intend on reaching.
I want to become closer to God; by reading the Bible more, by studying the Bible more, increasing my prayers, and although I go to church 99% of the time, I want to get more out of church, which requires me to be a better listener. I need to have an open mind and open heart.
I want to of course lose weight, exercise at least 3-4 times a week. I have done this before and I know that exercise makes you feel better, physically and mentally.
I want to do more for others. Support our local Burke United Christian Ministries, support the Back Pack Friday program at a local school for children who don't have food other the weekends. And in any way that God leads me.
I want to start saving money and stop wasting money. I want to buy out of need and not out of desire. (Although I really want a new TV so I can get my exercise program under way at work)
I am learning to use coupons and shop wisely. Today I used coupons at the grocery store and saved $26 dollars. I was so proud. I did it and it felt good. That leaves me more money to use in ways to help others.
I want to be a better wife and mother. Be more understanding and patient. Our family is very close and I do want to keep it that way.
And a biggy ...... I want to stop being a procrastinator. This is gonna be a tough one. (hehehe)
I WANT TO BE A BETTER ME!!! So, I am on my way.........
Live, Laugh, Love
Saturday, January 2, 2010
I had an awesome Christmas and so far the new year as started off with no drama, no action, no sadness (who am I kidding, yes there has been sadness, but not much) no stress (lol). Just maybe this year is going to be calm, fulfilling, smooth (again LOL) and one of the best that I have had in a while. It could always be worse, right? RIGHT!
Ok, I have put it off long enough. I must and get the tree down.............
Happy New Year my friends and God Bless!
Live, Laugh, Love