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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

So long 2008!

It is really hard to believe that this year is almost over. I thank God that the year is not ending the way it began. Things are looking up for me as the tragedy that I was dealing with at the beginning of the year is over. Thank Goodness!!! I am still healing but in much better shape. I am so thankful for the support of family and friends. Their love, patience and prayers are so appreciated. I love them so much for being there for me, for there were many hard days! Thank you God for blessing me with such an amazing family!

This year my brother-in-law was diagnosised with a carcinoid tumor in his right lung. He ended up having a little over half of his right lung removed. Thankfully there appears to be no other cancer and his recovery has gone very well. Praise God!

My mother had knee replacement surgery in October. I was so dreading this because she has many other health issues and is not a stong person. Much to my surprise she is doing quite well. She continues with therapy and they tell her she is ahead of schedule with her recovery. WOW! Praise God!

I can tell you that God is a great listener - we have had many conversations this year. He does answer prayers. He will carry you during times of trials if only you will let him. Me, being the stubborn person that I am tried to deal with everything myself. Know what? I can't do it alone and it took some time for me to let go to God completely. I am the fixer of the family and naturally think I can fix everything. No I can't and I don't have to. Forever more I hope to always Let Go and Let God!!

To my very special friend Nikki. I don't know how I could ever have gotten through 2008 without you. You listen to all of my complaining, all of my frustrations, everything from good to bad. You are very dear to me. I am grateful for your friendship, love ya. Thank you!

My plans for 2009 - LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE!!

Live each day to the fullest.
Laugh to warm my heart and those around me.
Love as never before.

So long 2008. Welcome 2009.............the best is yet to come!

Monday, December 29, 2008

Yet, another wonderful day............

Monday back at we were covered up. I wouldn't have it any other way. It was an odd, but good work day! As the day comes to an end I sit at the table watching my family playing the Wii, their laughing, I'm laughing at them. What a great scene. Who knew the Wii could be so much family fun, not to mention the exercise that comes with that fun. You notice that I am not playing (exercising) with them. Well there are no more remotes - what can I say!

I look forward to a good night sleep, as I didn't sleep very much last night. Perhaps a Lunesta would help the situation. Yeah, I bet it would. Sounds good!

Good night to all. Until we meet again - Peace, Joy and Love to all!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Another wonderful day.........

Well another day comes to an end. I am truely amazed at how fast time goes. Today has been another lazy day for me. I did, however, accomplish more today than yesterday. Really thats not saying much. LOL!

We have one more Christmas party tomorrow and then we will be finished. Ohhh more food. After tomorrow I am seriously going on a diet, no no no - I am going to start eating healthier. Yes that's it and exercise - of some kind. I don't think it matters what exercise as long as I get my butt to moving. We did get Wii Sports and Wii Fit for Christmas and it has some pretty neat exercise stuff on it. So that may be my play exercise. However, I do plan to walk everyday....yes I said everyday, I know what am I thinking? I am thinking better health, lose weight and refresh me.

The Wii has been a hit and I am glad I got it. It's great family fun. We have all played something, except Jimmy-who always says "you go ahead I'll do it later." We have laughed and had the best time. It has a fitness test and believe it or not and much to our surprise we are not in the best of shape, shocker! OK please allow me to correct myself, Jim is in better shape than anyone else, which in his eyes means he is Mr. Perfect! We are very quick to let him know what we think!

What has made me smile today? Watching the blue birds fly around. Watching my family playing the Wii. Looking at a friend's Christmas pictures of her little boy, he is a cutie.

It has been a wonderful day. Thank you God for your blessings, big and small.

Peace, Joy and Love to all!!!

Friday, December 26, 2008


Wow, Christmas has come and gone, just like that. It was a wonderful day. Believe it or not the day was calm. The kids were gone most of the day visiting with others. Jimmy and I did absolutely nothing. We had company later in the day, then once the kids were home we had dinner together as a family. I love those times. You see my kids are grown but still live at home and I know those times are numbered, so I cherish each and everyone. We are a very close family and I am so thankful for that. God has blessed us with so much.

Christmas day I was pondering on different things in my life. The good and the not so good. I have decided to make changes and with that have decided to make a few New Year's resolutions. I don't normally make New Year resolutions, but hey nothing else seems to work so I am going to give it a try. I want to be refreshed and stop letting others control my life. WOW that's gonna be hard. So here is my list of things that I want to do or change.....................

1) I want to have a closer walk with God. I want to have more time for bible study. I want to learn that when I pray and ask for help that I let God have 100% control and stop keeping 10% thinking I can do something about the situation. You see I am really bad at that, because sometimes God doesn't work fast enough for me. HA! have you ever heard that before. Patience is not one of my better qualities. I know that all things happen on God's time not mine and that he always knows best. So when I pray I need to let God take care of it.

2) Eat healthier, no not diet. I hate the word diet, that never works for me. So I have decided to say that I am going to eat healthier. I had lost quite a bit of weight and exercised and felt so much better. However, i let a tragedy in my life take control of me and of course stress ate, which put my weight back on. That being one of the times that I didn't let God have full control and I did not do very well at handling it on my own.

3) Exercise, another one of my least favorite words. OK, there was a time during my weight loss that exercising was an everyday occurrence, but not any more. I loved it because not only was I doing something good for me, but it's a great way of releasing stress. So why did I quit? Again, I let a tragedy in my life take control. So back to it - debating on whether to join a gym or exercise at home. I am not very committed when it comes to exercising at home, but I hate paying $42 a month to exercise at a gym. I am going to exercise, just need to make a decision as to where.

4) Letting go.............oh so hard for me! You see the tragedy in my life involved friends. I was so hurt, felt used, angry, and so many other emotions. This situation actually controlled my life for the best part of three years. I became sick! and that has costs far more than medical bills. I became a person that even I didn't know. Getting out of bed was a task. Doing the little things was a task. Lucky for me, my family and a few close friends have been very supportive. Finally I feel that I am at the end of this wreck, now it is a matter of healing and refreshing me. So I MUST learn to let go and give 100% to God. Again, that is hard for me to do, but I am trying.

5) Forgive......every time I think that I have done this, something happens that makes me realize that I have not totally forgave. I want to forgive, I have tried to forgive, but apparently I have not forgiven 100%. This is also hard for me!!!! But this is something that I must do in order to have a good relationship with God. How can I expect God to forgive me when I can't forgive others. I know that I will never forget this tragedy because it had such an impact on me and my family, but I will forgive 100% as God would have me to do.

6) Slow down and take time to smell the Rose's. Life is going way too fast. At the end of each day I am always thinking where did the day go. I want to slow down, look around, see the many blessings that God has given me. Learn to appreciate them instead of taking them for granted. Just the other morning I saw a red bird outside my was beautiful and it put a smile on my face. Normally I would over look that blessing, but not any more. It's the little things that can make you happy, so I am going to pay more attention to the little things because they always make me feel better.

7) Look for the positive. Everyday of my life I can clearly see the negative things that have happen and the negative seems to always be the topic of conversation. I have decided not to dwell on the negative but to look for the positive things that happen to me everyday. I want the positive to be the topic of conversation. When I come home and am ask how was your day, I want to be able to tell the positive. I believe that dwelling on the negative will bring you down, make you a grumpy person.......I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to be positive from now on. Being positive hopefully will uplift my spirit, make me smile more, give me a better attitude, refresh me and will help with all the things that I have written above.

OH MY GOSH, it's a short list, but a BIG list. I believe these few changes can make such an impact on my life and I am ready for the change. My prayer is that 2009 will be a much better year for everyone. May we open our hearts and minds to God and allow him to work within each of us. If you are reading this, please pray for me. The things on my list may seem easy for you, but trust me they are difficult for me. I look forward to the challenge that lies ahead of me. With Gods help I can accomplish my goals.

Peace, Joy and Love to all!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Great Day

Today has been a wonderful day. My parents came over this evening and had dinner with us and then we opened presents. We had an awesome time. I think everyone was very happy with their presents. It was so much fun.

Thank you God for your son, Jesus! Happy Birthday Jesus! We have so much to be thankful for. God is good all the time!

Today as I was coming home I saw a church sign that displayed the sermon title for Sunday - "A Wonderful Day," which is exactly what I had today.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Slow but fun

Today was slow at work for a Monday, but we had a good day. It was a day for silliness and laughter. Everyone needs those days once in a while. I know it was cold today and the wind was blowing so I can't blame people for staying at home. Perhaps we are preparing for snow. Would it not be awesome to have a white Christmas!!! Oh to me that would be the absolute best. It is so beautiful when it snows. Everything is still and there seems to be a calming. That is until it melts and makes a mess or the roads get icy. But hey we can't have everything. I enjoyed dinner this evening with my boys at Sagebrush. We had wings ..hum they were good. I cherish those times together, just the four of us talking and laughing, it makes my heart warm. Well everyone is calling it an evening to catch up on rest and sleep. Ohhhh how I wish I could go to sleep this early. I suppose I could do one of my favorite things............reading a book in bed. Yeah that sounds good, I think I will. Good night to all and God bless!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Whirlwind weekend

Wow, it has been another whirlwind weekend. Attended two Christmas parties and had lots of fun and food. All of that food reminds me that I must get with the exercise. I have spent the evening wrapping the last of the Christmas presents and can finally say.....I'm finished!! I can't believe its Christmas time again, boy time really does get away from me. I am a little exited to start a new year. I am hoping that as the new year begins I can let go of old ghosts. I want to forget the sad times of the past 3 years. I want to start the year fresh, with a new smile, a new hope, new joy and a refreshed me! I want to grow in my relationship with God. I want so much to be me again..............hmmmm that sounds a little weird, but if you have ever been there, then you know exactly what I am talking about. So here's to 2009---a new year of peace, joy and love.