TGI Wednesday!

I am sooooo glad that it is Wednesday and that I am off from work Thurs and Friday! YAY!! I have not had good days in a while. Some my fault, some other peoples fault. But things are looking up. Tomorrow family and friends (minus Jim and Jennifer) are coming to my house for Thanksgiving Lunch. I am excited about this. I look forward to being together - talking and laughing, sharing stories (old and new), not to mention the food. This is my day to eat whatever I want and how ever much I want.

I just need to breathe, slow down, sleep, relax and rest, which is exactly what I intend on doing over the next few days.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Ever felt like the needle in the haystack that no one can find???

Just thinking........

Weekend Wrap Up

I would love to tell you that my weekend as been great. Truth is Friday's crappy day flowed on into the weekend. I was hoping for a great Saturday and Sunday, but nahhhh, no such luck. So I can honestly tell you that I am ready for Monday. Ready to be back at work and hoping that Monday is going to start out differently, better. It just as too. I am drained from all the other junk. Need to smile, laugh and just have a normal day. No more fussing, no more arguing, no more crap. I tired................

I have had a crappy day. People have tested me to my limit. Yeah I have feelings too, yeah I get hurt just like you, yeah your remarks piss me off too. But being me, means that I have to be the perfect person - no feelings, being perfect, following the rules, waiting on someone til they are ready, not matter how long I have to sit and wait, my time is not important. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Looking for better days~!

It's Friday..............

so why am I not in a good mood? I am in such a funk today. I hate feeling like this. Lots and lots of things to be happy about, but noooooo I must feel like crap today. Ugh!!!! My patience, (what patience) are gone today. My nerves are on edge. It's one of those days in which I want to go home, jump in bed and hide.

I need hugs and lots of them. It is tough being a woman : (

When your husband cries..

My husband's biological mother died when he was three. He doesn't remember much about her at all. Yesterday during church, his stepmom and he had a long conversation about many things, but somehow got of on the subject of his biological mother. They didn't make it to preaching because they spent so much time talking after Sunday school. Anywho, She told him a story about his biological mother that really broke his heart.

His mother had breast CA and when it came time for her to leave this world, she put both of her hands on my husband's cheeks (remember he was three at the time) and told him how much she loved him and that she would be leaving soon to go and live with Jesus. My husband does not remember this at all. Off and on all day yesterday he cried because he could not remember that moment and wondered why. He wanted so desperately to remember. He ask so many times why he couldn't remember. He was breaking my heart - again he cried, we cried, my children cried. It was a very emotional day for him. You know it always breaks your heart when your children cry over disappointment and you can't change anything, but let me tell you it hurts just as bad when your husband cries.

I am not sure what the answer is, but in my way of thinking I told him this.......I believe that God is protecting you from this memory, because if you would remember, it just might be harder on you than not remembering.

There have been many times over the years that we have been married that he has told me he wishes so bad that he could remember his biological mother. Don't get me wrong, he has a great step mother who has loved and cared for him as her very own, and unless you knew that was his step mother you would never be able to tell otherwise.

It seems to me that as the hubby gets older and our children get older, he seems to be bothered more and more about not being able to remember or know his biological mother. I don't have the answer, but I can offer him love, support and my time of listening.

Praying today that God will give him comfort and peace.

Donna

My day!

It is so pretty outside today. The sun is shining, the fall leaves (what is left) is sparkling in the sun. So what am I going to do today?

Clean a little, shop a little, play a little (outside of course), dream a little and have a fantastic day.

Live, Laugh, Love
Donna

Well have much hesitation I had to purchase a new cell phone. My flip phone has seen its better days. It is slowing dying. So the hubby and I venture to the Verizon store and wait, and wait, and wait in line. Who knew it would be busy yesterday and why? On dumb me, forgot that schools were out and people were off from work for Veterans' Day.

Anywho, finally I decide to get the enV Touch. WOW - touch screen and Internet capability. I am moving up. So after all the paperwork, we finally get to leave.

I have had my new phone since yesterday afternoon and I HATE IT!!! I so miss my flip phone. Sometimes upgrade is not good for everyone. UGH!!!!!!!

So I am not having the greatest day, but not too bad. I have allowed others to "push me over the edge" so to speak. Not good!! I am just a little flustered. Why do I let them do that?? Who knows.......that's just me. Besides everyone has their moments, right? So after some much needed counseling session with a friend, I am back on track. The rest of the day will be GOOD!, right?

TGIF!!!

Raising Cain

As some of you know I have started a Bible study. The book I am using is "Know the Bible in 30 Days." I purchased this book some time back from Guideposts. I am enjoying it very much, but it is going to take me longer than 30 days. First it's a lot of reading and I am ok with that, but I am famous for reading and re-reading, so I am taking a little longer. That's ok, it's what I retain that matters.

Anyways, the book offers "Did You Know?" sections along the way. The other night when I read a particular one I was surprised, I didn't know that. Now you guys or gals may know this little bit of tidbit, but I didn't and it has stuck with me. So please allow me to share and don't think I am dumb for not knowing this. Here goes...........

Did you know? Ever wonder where the expression "raising Cain" came from? When people are squeamish about using profanity, they are reluctant to say "raising hell." And because Cain, the first murderer on earth, presumably went to hell after he died, "raising Cain" has the same meaning as "raising hell."

Who knew? I sure didn't I actually have never wondered where that saying came from. Did you know that??

Rambling...

I'm tired!! (just thought I would throw that in) I could eat everything in the house right now. Good thing I don't have any chocolate anywhere. I really have been eating healthier, drinking lots of water (floating). I am doing very well or I was until tonight. I haven't done it yet......but most likely I am going to have something sweet tasty and bad for me. hehehe

Let me see, hummm................what has been going on in my life lately?? Oh yeah, the hubby and I celebrated our anniversary last week (10/28). We went out of town on Thursday, back on Friday -- the weather was not good and the hubby was getting sick. Sunday evening rolls around and he is much worse. He goes to the doc on Monday and turns out he has H1N1. Who knew?? Today he is much better and even went back to work. I have been walking around on egg shells.........Waiting, cloroxing, lysoling, washing everything, taking loads of Vit C, staying away from him and HOPING I don't get that crap. So far so good!!!

This past week a dear sweet gentleman from our church passed away. He was such a neat person with a great love for the Lord. His son called to see if my son, Travis, would be a pall bearer. The gentleman had told his wife that when he passed away he wanted Travis as a pall bearer. That really has touched Travis and it was an honor.

And as of this moment I am having a Blue Bunny no sugar added Krunch bar. Oh man it is so good. Did I mention it only has 100 calories. (ha, found the chocolate)

Well I am off to do my Bible study and get a good nights sleep. Praising God for a wonderful day, great family and friends.

Live, Laugh, Love
Donna