Confused

People confuse me sometimes. I don't understand their thinking. I don't understand some of the things they say. I don't understand some of the things they do.

I really don't understand why they find the need to constantly lie. I might could understand a lie every once in awhile, but constantly. It really doesn't make them look better. I especially detest it when they look me in the face and tell me a HUGE LIE and I know their telling a lie. What are they thinking?

I believe I would like them so much better if they could just be their self.

Sigh!

Awwww!

Yesterday was a wicked day, so busy at work, people being not nice people, drama once again at church and I was just tired.

Today however is a new day.........so far so good. My mood is not the greatest. I am a worry wart and a fixer. It is really hard for me to sit back and watch things happen and not jump in to try and fix it. But, for my sanity I must sit back and watch. Am I the only person who has this problem?

Anywho, early this morning (7:30 am) my oldest son called me (way early for him to call, heart racing) just to talk. Awwwww! That is one of those moments that takes your breath away. I felt special. We had a great conversation and it was a good way to start my day. I needed that!

I am at work now, feeling a little blah (mostly because I hate drama and I know the storm is brewing). Hoping for a good day.

Live, Laugh, Love
Donna

To funny not to share......

This morning, being the bad girl that I am, decided to have breakfast from McDonald's. I heart their Mocha Frappe. Anywho, the lady in front of me was ordering and since I had my window down I could every work she was saying. The conversation when like this:

McD: Welcome to McDonalds. Would you like to try a Mocha Frappe?

Customer: No! I want four coffee's with Sweet & Low and cream.

McD: I am sorry we do not have S&L, would you like Splenda or Equal?

Customer: No I want Sweet & Low and cream.

McD: What I am saying is that we don't have S&L, would you like Splenda or Equal?

Customer: WHAT I AM TRYING TO TELL YOU IS THAT I WANT SWEET & LOW AND CREAM. ARE YOU NOT LISTENING TO ME??? (With hands waving out the window)

McD: I am really sorry, but we do not have Sweet & Low. You will have to choose Splenda or Equal.

Customer: Just give me Equal and cream.

Customer drives around and pays.

Next window to pick up her order, she tells them that she wants Sweet & Low and cream. Now the manager is at the window explaining that they do not have S&L.

OH MY!!!! It was hilarious to watch and listen.

Thanks for the entertainment!!!!!!!!!!

"WHY?"

I have a very heavy heart today............. Several people I know are struggling with cancer and it breaks my heart. My son's friends father has colon CA and they have only given him weeks to live. He has fought an incredible battle. My friend's husband has recently been diagnosised with esophageal and liver CA. In a matter of weeks he has gone down hill super fast. An old friend was diagnosised just last week with advanced colon CA. A co-worker of my husband's is having health issues and they are still not sure what is going on, but its looking like he has cirrhosis of the liver and it's pretty advanced.

I am lifting each of these people and their families up to the Lord in prayer. I am praying for healing, comfort, peace. I know each of them are struggling with pain, weakness and many other health issues, as cancer is a mean disease.

Perhaps that is why I am so blah lately. I feel helpless in these situations. I am and will continue to pray for them. I will never understand "WHY" but will remember that God is in control.

Blessings to all..................

Blah Blah Blah

Ok I admit it, I am a little blah today. It actually started yesterday. I can't pinpoint why, but you know when you get the blahs it always seems that everything else just plays right along. Innocent family / people hurt your feelings, you take things the wrong way, you can't get anything done on time or done right, you have no energy or no desire to do anything. I hate this mood and the thoughts that come along with it. Praying that tomorrow will be a better day.

Friday

I don't desire to wish my life away, but I am super happy that it is Friday. I am so looking forward to my weekend. Plans with my family tonight, shopping plans with my BFF on Saturday, plans for a huge family "Mothers Day" lunch on Sunday and of course time to worship our God.

Oh, how could I forget, Saturday is my dad's birthday.

Hope you have an awesome weekend, I plan to!

Oh man what a day!! I am pooped. We were busy at work, some strange and weird happenings. We have had a lot days like that recently. Busy is good, I call that job security.

I am adjusting to changes in my life, slowly buy surely. My new motto is..............If I can't change it, whats the point in worrying about it? It seems to be working well for me. Also, I have been spending more time in prayer and relinquishing more to God. We do indeed have an awesome God!

This past Sunday we started studying Genesis in Sunday School. Interesting thoughts from SS class mates. We actually didn't get very far in the first Chapter of Genesis. Who knew there would be so much discussion. I am so excited about this study. One of the question that was ask is- if God made man, where did God come from?? Ok, personally I don't ponder on this to much. I just accept that God is and has always been. What about you? Any thoughts?

I am off to bed to read and then get a good nights sleep.

Dear You.......

I will never understand why you feel the need to play dumb or tell little white lies or rearranged a circumstance to your advantage. It doesn't look nice on you! As my day goes along when you do these things, I become ill with you. Sometimes I say things I should not or think things I should not. Why do you do this? The only thing I can ever come up with is that you are always trying to make yourself look good and that you will do whatever it takes to accomplish that, even if it hurts someone else in the process. I wish you would just be yourself. Stop trying to make others look bad. It will come around to get you and is it going to be worth it. I doubt it!

One particular day as you were up to your shenanigans, God stepped in and answered my prayer. I had prayed that God would help me to keep my mouth shut and move on, over looking your shenanigans. Praise God he did! Later in the day, God again stepped in while my mind was thinking of you and your desperation of attention and told me that I should PRAY FOR YOU! What! Seriously? Wow, what was I to do? Of course I will listen to God.

So my friend full of shenanigans and desperation, I am praying for you as God has ask me to do. I am excited to see how God is going to work in your life. Oh have no doubt he is going to be working on you. My hope is that you will let him in and push the devil away.

Doc Appts

Yesterday I took the day off and filled it with doctor appointments. First off to the allergy doc. My very first visit to the allergy doctor. Lots of needle sticks, but it was so worth it to finally get some help. It was funny to find out that I am highly allergic to grass and advised to stay away from fresh cut grass (that's not gonna happen, especially since my yard is HUGE!) Allergic to oak trees, which I am surrounded by, oops! Anywho, new meds and in two weeks start my shots. Woot! Is it odd to be excited about taking shots?

On to the eye doctor office. I have new glasses and I cannot see out of them unless I raise my chin and look through the bifocal part. So I took them back and explained to the technician what was going on. She tried many adjustments, which obviously did not work and then calls on a gentleman to help me. Again we go through adjustments. At this point I am not sure what part of I can not see through the top part of my glasses they are not getting. The gentlemen holds up a card straight it front of me and says can you see that. Again, NO its blurring. He tells me to raise my chin, now can you see it. Yes I can! (because i am looking through the bifocal part). And he says.... "Well ok then there you go." hummmm, I am thinking and really trying to be nice and finally I say "I cannot walk around all day with my chin up in the air" and dufus says "Oh!" What an idiot! Finally I have to make another appointment to get my eyes check again. After reading my chart he discovers that my new lens are weaker than my old ones. Huh??? How does that work?? Needless to say I have to have another eye exam. Oh holy crap!!!

On to the next doc appointment to get my meds for headaches and the lovely ones that keeps me from wanting to hurt somebody. Great short visit. Yay!

It was a full day, but at least I did get to ride with my window down. Yay for sunshine and warm weather.

Bucket List

Today has been a special day. Up bright and early this morning and on the road by 7 am to Jonesville. It was an 1 1/2 hour drive to...................Carolina Skydiving. Yup we really did go there. My youngest son had a wish, for his birthday he wanted to go Skydiving and skydiving he did. He had to sign all kinds of legal papers. You know the ones that say if there is an accident you can not sue us or if you were to die your family can not sue us. No sign, no skydive. So he signed away.

He was so excited and I was excited for him. He has wanted to do this forever. There were 4 of us that went with him (on the road trip, not the plane ride). That 4 did not include his father - he refused to watch. So after having a brief instructional class and watching a brief movie, he was on his way. He never seemed nervous at all.

All geared up, away they went. Up, up, and away in a very small puddle jumper (4 passenger). A little over 10,000 feet in the air, attached to a professional skydiver with only 4 hooks, they jumped off of a very small ledge on the plane, turned two flips, free fell for a whole whopping 35 seconds before pulling the cord and then just soared around for a while and had a safe landing.

As I expected he was all smiles and wanted to do it again. However, I am afraid he will have to save a little money before he does that again. That was not a cheap thrill.

So glad he did, so glad he enjoyed it, so glad he had a safe dive. He can mark that one off of his bucket list.

Good Girl!

Well after being sick since Monday and no recovery in sight (watery eyes, sneezing, runny nose, nasal congestion) I made myself an appointment with the allergy doctor. Not what I wanted to do, but this time around the allergies / sinus crap has got the best of me and I don't want to keep doing this. I have had enough. The hard part is that I can not take any antihistamines for 5 days before my appointment. I don't know how I am going to do this. UGH!!

Hopefully it will be worth it!

Random thoughts today..........

I am tired of being sick, I have a sinus infection or some kind of crud

I miss my BFF.

I hate it when people whisper, send an email or text - stop trying to make me feel like your talking about me.

I hate it when people suck up and play the game, just be yourself!!! or least don't complain to me about it and then change because you feel the need to suck up, ugh!!

What the crap am I going to fix for dinner? An everyday challenge because I don't enjoy cooking.
No I don't want to try your 5 for $5.01, just give me my sandwich.

I wish the rules didn't change everyday.

Can I just go home and go to bed??

Delete

Have you ever wished there was a Delete button for life? You know the times when you have said something that you really wished you hadn't. The time that your mouth speaks before your brain can process what comes out. The minute it comes out you know that you have messed up, ugh!! Delete! all better, starting over, thinking, then speaking.

Have you ever had a situation that you would like to delete from your mind? The situation that you somehow found yourself involved in, but would love to move on and forget it or you wish it never never never would have happen in the first place. Delete! Delete! Mind clear!!

I wont go as far to say that I would like to delete a person from my life. No I would never wish that. Hmmm, yes I have thought that, sorry. Not to say that I would delete them away for ever and ever, just away from me. Delete!

There are many things that I wish I could delete and start over, but as we all know that is impossible. Can you image being able to have a delete button? I am thinking there would be abuse of the delete button, hehehe.

There would be many life lessons I would miss if I had a delete button, so maybe it's not such a good idea. The best answer to those "I wish I had not said that" is prayer. The best answer to rough situations is prayer. The best answer to people who drive me absolutely nuts is prayer.

Is it not awesome to know that you can take everything to God in prayer? He is there 24 /7. I love the little smiles and warm heart I get went I realize that God has answered my prayers or when I see him working in ways that I never could have imaged. Sure God does really big things, but I do so enjoy the small things as well.

Live, Laugh, Love

Donna

Sunshine

I am so loving the sunshine today! Ready for spring!

But on the flip side: There are somethings in life that you just gotta laugh about or they will drive you nuts. So today is a Sunny-Laughing day : )

Ugh!!

I am so not me today. Who knows what the problem is. I think it is just a hormonal thingy. Blah!!! You would think that as nice as the weather is today I would be super upbeat and motivated, NOT! It doesn't help that my mind is playing tricks on me - does that ever happen to you? A few small things going on always adds up to one large headache. I need a vacation!! Even the radio is getting to me today, isn't that ridiculous?

I need to have a God "walk about." That is the name I give for my much needed conversation with God...........I usually go walking on our driveway (1 mile long) alone and just have a good ole talk with God. Now if my neighbors, which are not real close but can see me, watch me doing this, they must think I am crazy........I am looking at the sky, making motions with my arms and the lips are moving alot. Perhaps I should do this in the dark, which I have before. HaHaHa
It's a different time with God then simply saying my prayers. It's a time when I feel like I am going over the edge, so walking and talking to God really helps. Maybe this evening. Don't call the cops, I will be ok.

Update on my Mom - she is doing great after her surgery. YAY! Praise God!

Hope you are having a great day!

Snow

It is once again snowing here in my little town! It's beautiful, refreshing, peaceful and fun (most of the times). If it keeps coming it's gonna mess up my plans this evening, for that I will be sad. But looking on the bright side - we can always reschedule. In the meantime I get to act like a little kid in the candy store, I love the snow!

Precious Moments....

Wednesday I stayed with Mom while dad went to run a few errands. Mom was propped up in her bed with lots of pillows and cushions surrounding her knee that she just had surgery on. The TV was on and honestly I really don't remember what she was watching. After a little bit Mom said I think I will take a nap if that's ok with you. I said sure, I might just crawl up in that bed beside of you and take a nap also. She said that would be great. So that's just exactly what I did. I snuggled in beside of mom (being careful not to hit the knee) and covered with a really warm blanket. Mom actually did take a nap, I didn't sleep. I watched a little TV and did a little thinking of the old days and just enjoyed being all snuggled close to Mom - something that I had not done in years. It was a precious moment! We may grow up, but special times with Mom is always needed even when it is something so simple as snuggling.

And then last night we had family dinner. After dinner the boys stayed to play the Wii (Mario Brothers). They had a great time. It was fun listening to them laugh, play arguing of over who did this or who did that. I was in another room, but I could hear them and it brought me such joy and a smile on my face. Another precious moment!

I love those precious moments. It is amazing at how much they will warm your heart!

Mom came home from the hospital yesterday, which was a day earlier than we thought. She had a rough ride home, but once she got home things settled down. Yesterday evening after work I picked Mom and Dad's dinner up for them and went to their house. Mom was lying in the bed, so we sit her up and she had dinner in bed. Once she was all finished, I laid in the bed with her and we just talked and watched TV. It was fun! I know you may think that is silly, but seriously to lay in the bed with my Mom and just be us was indeed a cherished moment. Don't get me wrong, I am truly sorry that she had to have surgery and is as they say "laid up for a while" but it was a much needed mother / daughter time. So needless to say, Mom is doing quite well.

Today it is beautiful here. The sun is shining and it is going to be around 60 degrees, Yay! I have a busy day ahead, church things, 2 birthday parties and some much needed cleaning and laundry to do. Oh yeah and a little time outside to soak up some Vit D.

I hope you have a wonderful day however you spend it.

Live, Laugh, Love
Donna

Mom..

Yesterday my mother had to have knee revision, something that we all dreaded alot. She had her surgery in Asheville, which is a little more than 1 hour away from us. Since she had to be there at 5 am (yes really 5 am) we went to Asheville on Tuesday and spent the night. Dad and I felt that would be better for mom since she is quite a nervous person.

As I said we all dreaded this surgery because the last one was very difficult for her. Anywho, as most of you know nothing goes as planned, arrived at 5 am, surgery was to be at 7:15 am. Well......surgery started at 8:15 and was over around 10:10 am. Everything went well. As this point we are waiting on a room for her. They always tell you there are no available rooms, in truth they don't have enough nurses to cover. Mom stayed in regular recovery so we were not able to see her. I didn't like that part because I needed to see her for myself and decide how she was doing, but they don't really care how I think she is doing, rules are rules- and I get that. They were kind enough to call ever so often and let us know how she was.

Finally at 2:30 pm we get the call that she is going to her room. Again comes the dread of how she is going to do. Nobody wants to see their mother suffer. Much to my surprise she was smiling and that was totally awesome to me. She really did well during the surgery / recovery process.

I was so relieved and so was my dad. Lots and lots of prayers were said for mother and God answered those prayers. Praise God!!

Is it not awesome when your prayers are answered and God puts that little appreciative smile on your face and you offer those 2 little words to God - Thank You!

Talked with Mom this morning and she is still doing well and I am still thanking and praising God for answered prayers!!

Live, Laugh, Love
Donna

Frustration

Do you ever find yourself so frustrated with things that you allow the devil to work in you? And just as you have let the devil do his work through you, suddenly you realize what has happen and you are then upset with yourself for doing it? Well I find that the closer you try to be with God, the harder the devil works!!!!


Do you know people who take advantage of situations, who abuse the the system? Who use you to get what they want? People who don't really care how it affects you, they are only thinking of their self. This frustrates me! I allow it to upset me (devil working).


I over reacted to a situation recently, it was bad and afterwards I was not pleased with myself and I am sure that God was not either. So, this week when frustrating things have been happening to me, I have tried really hard to let it go, to relinquish all to God. I ask God to take it and deal with it, that I AM letting it go. And he does!!! When I truly let go I can then feel the peace in the situation. That is an awesome feeling. Now if I could only do it every time. Instead of being upset, I try to pray for myself and whom ever the situation involves. I try to react how God would want me to (not always easy for me). I truly believe that this will be an ongoing struggle for me, mostly because I am a stubborn person. (yes, really I am)


Out of my distress I called on the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free. Psalm 118:5


Thank goodness he is still working on me!


Live, Laugh, Love
Donna